Happy New Year!

letterI just wanted to say “Happy New Year” to all! We are hoping that 2010 brings us much peace, health, and a very boring life:) It’s been a roller coaster ride for us for the last 2 years and 10 months. It would be so nice if we could just have a normal life.

My husband goes to the hospital on Tuesday to get his Port taken out. The last batch of tests shows that he does not need anymore

chemo. It’s a great sign that this year is starting off on the right foot. I knew my husband was going to be okay. I don’t think Jonathan would have left him otherwise.

We miss Jonathan tremendously. I talk to him every night before I go to sleep and his pillow is still in our room. It still smells like him:)

Dear Jonathan,
It’s me mommy. I just want to let you know that we love you and miss you very much. If I could know 100% for sure that you are okay now and cancer free, then I would be all right. I hope that in heaven that you are able to do all the things that you couldn’t enjoy here with us. I hope that you are running, laughing, and playing with lots of friends.

I want to let you know that you made me so proud. You were such a blessing for us. You touched more lives and hearts in the 7 years that you were here with us, then most adults do in a lifetime.

I miss your hugs and kisses. I miss sleeping next to you holding your hand. I miss hearing your laughter and seeing the twinkle in your eyes when your smile. If you see us having fun and laughing, it’s not because we don’t miss you. It’s just because you taught us the true meaning of life. You taught us how to enjoy the small things and to never take anything for granted. Please look after Justin and Jena. I told them that you are always with them.

Remember, we are always a family. I hope the warmth of our love keeps you warm every night. I love you always and forever.

Mommy

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